5 Shots to Kill A Rogue
Someone else weren't able ta get ahold of Kharris eit'er. Castien's answer fizzled across t'e radio channel. "She's not available. Family emergency. I may be able to be of assistance?" I lifted me 'ead from t'e bolts I'd been screwin' tighter on me bike and blinked incredulously at t'e wee box on me garage floor.
"Yeh waited a bloody WEEK ta tell me Kharris is missing?!" I raged at t'e Baron. Maras exploded words at me back as I turned, "You seemed too busy fucking my wife!"
"I am your monster, Iloam. Not your friend. Friends are for nice little fools who laugh in the sunshine. Do let us not play that game any more, hmm?" His words rasped wit' deep hatred.
Her honeyed confession buzzed t'rough t'e speaker of me communicator, "Right after I pulled the demon out of you... I went to Ythgar to help pull the demons out of me. We've been in various stages of friends since."
Three years. I swallowed. "Yeh 'ave been wit 'im longer t'an we ever were..."
"Do yeh love each ot'er?" I already knew. I already knew everyt'in. I needed 'er ta just bloody say it.
"I've loved him for a while. You know me.. offer violence and I am on board. Does he love me? Perhaps, but that is for him to say not me."
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((I love how effective the
((I love how effective the images are here. They serve as a stark kind of punctuation.))
"Hello, babies. Welcome to Earth. It's hot in the summer and cold in the winter. It's round and wet and crowded. At the outside, babies, you've got about a hundred years here. There's only one rule that I know of, babies—God damn it, you've got to be kind."
-Kurt Vonnegut
((Thank you! I hesitated on
((Thank you! I hesitated on both the format and the use of images for this blog as it's a pretty big departure from my usual. But I wanted the reader to draw a huge amount of inferences without me hitting them over the head with a massive clue bat. I hope it was successful!))
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Oh, Iloam. Well, if you want
Oh, Iloam. Well, if you want to take things I said while mad... and cherish them... you may, of course.
((/sad for Loamey!))
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"Because how one ought to live is so far removed from how one lives that he who lets go of what is done for that which one ought to do sooner learns ruin than his own preservation: because a man who might want to make a show of goodness in all things necessarily comes to ruin among so many who are not good. Because of this it is necessary for a prince, wanting to maintain himself, to learn how to be able to be not good and to use this and not use it according to necessity."
-Machiavelli
Yer anger allowed yeh ta
Yer anger allowed yeh ta reveal wot was in yer soul, wit'out t'e noble veil of social manners. It's been awhile now wit hints and passive comments along a similar vein.
I may be jest a wee gypsy, but I'm not a complete fool. I know wot I am ta yeh. I can take a bloody hint.
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Now, your highness, I
Now, your highness, I wouldn't presume to get in the middle of the complicated relationship between you and his Lordship, but I am compelled to mention this one thing. Because I know and have advised to others who you value that they not take YOUR words, offered in anger, as absolute truth. The circumstances may be different, as are the traits of the individuals involved, but it is something to keep in mind.
((Ael would totally want to say this IC for realz someday, but alas, who knows if it would come up. Our dudes are so inclined to internalize for the good of others :op))
*frustrated sigh* remember
*frustrated sigh* remember rogue, you helped dig those holes we are burying you in.
(( your writing always pulls on my heartstrings I want to hug Iloam and shake him all at the same time. I agree with the idea on the pictures they make a dramatic statement) )
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Passion is not tender, it's a violent storm in the soul.
Oh aye. I remember tha.
Oh aye. I remember tha. Keenly.
((Ael-player wrote this about Iloam last night and it may just be the most brilliant thing ever written about the character: "He lives in a reality where his greatest villain is himself, where he was already doomed from the start and where its so hard to connect to people emotionally. He expects to fail with every move he makes, but he still keeps trying."
He fully blames himself for being the root cause of all the statements above that keep replaying in his mind, stuck on repeat, as he drinks. Kharris wouldn't have gone looking for her child in the Nether if it weren't for him. Kharris' friends wouldn't have assumed he didn't care about her if he'd been a better husband. Ythgar wouldn't treat him like shit all the time if he hadn't broken. Ixinane wouldn't have met and fallen in love with Ythgar if he hadn't broken, either.))
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"People are assholes, that's
"People are assholes, that's why I typically set them on fire."
(I love how short and impacted this blog is. It's full of angst and sorrow without being overt. I envy you that ability. Write more please.)
If poison, arson, sex, narcotics, knives have not yet ruined us and stitched our quick, loud patterns on the canvas of our lives, it is because our souls are still too sick.
-Baudelaire-
((I'm glad you like it! I'm
((I'm glad you like it! I'm not a big fan of just copy/paste blogs... but the more I thought about how to write this big, emotionally complex blog to explain what Iloam's holding inside from the rollercoaster of the past two months.... the more I felt like I was overcomplicating it. It just felt like... it's just these handful of direct quotes, rolling around in his head, over and over.
I know he'll -never- say anything to anyone about it, because that's the sort of guy he is. And I know he'll get up in the morning and keep going. But as I told Ael, it's like watching this guy get in a massive motorcycle accident and slide 20 feet across pavement. And then with broken legs and his eyeball hanging out and shit, he'll get up and gimp off into the sunset because he's a survivor and that's what he does. XD))
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(Iloam and Synn need to kiss
(Iloam and Synn need to kiss and make up and then go be shitty heroes together. We can epicly fail and be each others beacons. If Synn knew ANY of what was going on, she would be first there to help Iloam stand. <.< FRIENDS DO THAT. Maybe next week? *evil grin* we can set the world on fire in Ael's absence. And be super hot and cute looking guilty when she comes back and taps her foot at us!)
If poison, arson, sex, narcotics, knives have not yet ruined us and stitched our quick, loud patterns on the canvas of our lives, it is because our souls are still too sick.
-Baudelaire-
((Yes! Shitty heroes of epic
((Yes! Shitty heroes of epic fail! People can be all 'OMG MY LIFE IS IN DANGER, MUST BE TUESDAY!' and we can herpderp tumble through the door and be like 'CLEARLY YOU ARE ON THE BRINK OF DEATH. HERE. LET ME HELP YOU!' and set them on fire.))
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I hate leaving, knowing what
I hate leaving, knowing what you are likely enduring.
(( :o( My poor Iloam. Need to come back and throw a party after everything is chill, dammit.))
((He hates that she is
((He hates that she is leaving too, but he'd never say so ;) INSTEAD HE LEAVES HER +FROST ENCHANTED BOWLERS <3 <3
But yeah. It's good she's taking her com.))
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Didn't even make the list. I
Didn't even make the list. I really have lost my touch. -wistful sigh-
Sounds like you need some new
Sounds like you need some new surroundings... new people.
((Always good to see you
((Always good to see you write; like I said last time: I really admire your ability to say so much in so few words. You did it again, here, and I am so jealous of that! ))
(( I don't often read tags
((
I don't often read tags but for some reason 'mangst' caught my attention and made me laugh ;)
You've already explained above in answer to Synnaquin about the quotes, but I just wanted to say I found it really effective - telling the 'story' of Iloam's mental state by simply using the very words of others that shaped the state in the first place.
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"(I) know what art is! It's paintings of horses!"
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